Drawl for Summer

Listening to Mac Demarco. Splayed out on my bed. Sleep deprived. Only red lights in my room so my eyes don't get tired. That way I can remain in this limbo state while I write. So I can stay distracted. Before my thoughts catch up to me. I wish I never have to wait during these transitions, these in-between states. From getting ready to go out, to waiting to fall asleep, my mind is becoming increasingly dangerous. To me. No bueno.

I guess I'm going a little nuts due to my lack of sleep. I hate how I write / think, it's so damn boring. I need to read more. Write more. "Need to," yeah right.

I do need to refocus on my health. I really want abs so I don't have to worry about food anymore.

As the summer nears, I'm coming to appreciate some things. I suppose it's not in my best interest to reminisce about the past though. Rumination is what artists excel at. For better and for worse. My focus as soon as I get a job, is creating my watch dealer business. And then joining ECH. And then figuring out how to make money online, so that I can travel without worry. But maybe I don't want to leave the U.S. Maybe, I just want to make music in peace, somewhere beautiful, out in the countryside. I'd rather have a wife and be rich by then though.

Okay, let's flesh this out though:

1. get AV technician job so parents don't freak out and I can continue living with them in peace to help them & avoid paying rent
2. pay off PayPal credit line
3. buy speedy reduced for close to $1200
4. prepare watch gear
5. continue paying off FROZEN discover card line (keep it frozen you fool)

that's pretty much my plan for the next 2 years while I make music in the meantime, that's how I'll get my social life in, by being productive and making music w them. Maybe start that youtube channel too huh? Get my IG popping too. eh, don't care bout nuthin, except for money and some friends.

Figuring Out Markdown

• is not so hard!

eventually I'll be able to learn C++ and create Premix!