Flunk da Funk

I flunked that subject. I am not, however, a flunkee. (reading Psycho-Cybernetics)

In the past, no matter how insane I may have felt, there's been no feeling that I've felt that has given me the feeling of success as much as successfully convinving somebody of something. In car sales, it was bittersweet, as I felt coerced by others to sell. Not by managers, but by the company. "Management." how was that different than my sales managers directly above me? Well, it was like an omnipresent... being... that shunned me whenever I messed up, who wouldn't even look at me if I did something right. The people who treated me with positive reinforcement for learning to do the job well, were few and far between. It wasn't the culture to be nice. And I didn't love that.

Max is one of the few people with acute social awareness / intelligence that I trust, so when he recommended me this company and this salesperson, I wasn't completely dismissive. I liked his texts back to me, and he's young, but not too young. I risked a little bit of embarrasment when I sent him a website I made for his company. It payed off, because he liked it and said he'd want help on that down the line. I also got to show to Max my newly acquired web dev skills. I can finally be useful!

This new self-image that I will create for myself here, will be everything that I've ever wanted to be. Someone that I can be proud of when looking into the mirror. A strong moral compass, finances to help out my family and friends (Tim, Max, Trent), with impressive physical capabilities. Below is the unbroken chain of logic with the aim of high self-esteem.

This is not the roadmap, but the mindset.

Agentic. Willful. Boundless energy towards being useful. In peak physical condition at all times. Well-read. Finds himself in the present often.